A Longtime, Is A Short Time.....Carthasis?

I do give my whole in everything I do. I learnt that the hard way. Over time, you get the feeling all is not what it seems. Sometimes, one feels like they are giving up. But when you wake up in the middle of the night and think of where you want to be: it's a spur to work harder. It's an own volition but then some things are kept away from you. One wonders.... Mornings are hopeful, evenings, a body soaking moment, to get rid of the days fatigue. For how long should this go on.. I long for others to be human. To understand the basic tenets of motivation; try to make someone feel they are helpful and their ideas are worth. It may not be the greatest of ideas or Nobel winning initiatives but there is a chance, when appreciated. I feel the need to take a walk, but I would like to do so when am content, I made a change in my life. I made a positive improvement in attitudes and perceptions of others. I made a change in life. It's not easy, but I will. I agree with the mantra: wait and your turn shall come. But I also live by a personal ethos; knock and it shall be opened. I am going for it. This is the time....it may not seem the-ready-time for you but for me. I am in for it.. Join me in my journey...