In pursuit of Happiness....

I want to be happy...
But seldom am I at peace..
Drudgery, deceit..
War..pain..
Can I really Be Happy..

Back when I was young,
They pelt my buttocks..
So as I could go to school,
Study..Become a Doctor..
Get a good Job..
Life was Hard..but I made it..
Now am A Doctor..
But am I happy?

Armed with a Degree..
I set out...to conquer the world..
To save the sick beings..
To discover drugs..
Drive a big car..
And have two rascals,
running around the house!

This never happened..
Was asked whom I knew..
Or how much I can commit..
Kitu-kidogo was the name..
And the door was shut..
I wonder why..

I want to be Happy..
But the odds are innumerable..
All I can afford..
Is a fixed portrait grin..
That's how happy I am...
But I yearn for more!